Moonlight Chemistry. I’ve been awake for three days. Will you repeat the question? I’d shout if from the rooftop, figured it would end suspiscion. I lack an ounce of focus, I keep it all wrapped up inside. Your eyes will stare at me but you are not welcome here tonight. Your sympathy won’t keep me from calling you out. I was blinded by the moonlight chemistry and the rope that held you back is now wrapped around my neck. But you keep telling me that I am the one who held you down. I think I’ll enjoy the sunshine a hundred miles from where you are. I’ll have a birds-eye view from the pedestal you kept me on. The hope is that you’d find me and I’d begin to fall apart. But you misunderstood me. Don’t hold your breath when you are staring at me. You never wasted the lungs you fill with words.
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Courage Down. Did I say what you wanted to hear? Did it play out in the back of your mind? How does it feel to be awkward, alone in the spotlight? Are you running behind? It’s a lost cause. It’s a chance to rewind. It’s another regret but I hope it’s the last time. Do you know that Chicago is lonely without you? But you’re always in mind. You told me you are dying to live by the ocean, you said it keeps you alive. I am no one. I am nothing without you near me. I know you want this, but I don’t have my courage down. Put aside your ammunition. Let’s go out and paint the town. With nothing but this evening to leave the awkwardness behind. And I am tired of being what you had in mind. I am careless with hope and I want you to know that. I’m master at making a fool out of myself. I am waiting forever, and never again. (I am no one. I am nothing without you near me) I don’t have my courage down. You are never alone so I guess this is goodbye.

To See You. I want to see you but I’ll wait all day if I had to. Let’s start the engine. Let’s take a ride to anywhere. Let’s kill the headlights that way no one can stare. Another weekend drowning in alcohol. Another evening spent just staring at the wall. But I am through with growing up. To see you running away is the only thing that I remember from that day. But I need you more than you know. You’re the only thing I’ve got that matters anyway. I am not the answer. It’s just the start of something real. It’s not the purpose, it’s how you want to feel. I’m not the answer. I’m just a bed tonight. Another photograph to keep you on my mind. But I am through with growing up. I want to see you but I’ll wait all day if I had to.

Need You Here. I’ll try again, got the weight of my whole life crashing. I think our time has gone and passed us by. I can’t recall how it felt to be ashamed of all the words you spoke, and I wonder if you care about this, about me now. But I know that we’ll make it through the winter months now. Yeah I know that we’ll make it. It’s better than be alone. I hope you find what you’re looking for. I need you here. I hope to god there is an ending because I need you here. It’s been a long month for me, but I’m alive. I got a hard luck story. I think in time I could make this right. Do you know how to say that you’re sorry? Well, I’m sorry you woke up alone. I’m lost. You’re counting the days until I hold this over your head. Well, I’m not. Tell me I’m wrong. Tell me it’s wrong to think that you’ll come home tonight. Think of me. You don’t know how it ends.

Down to the Wire. Here’s to Friday night alone, a toast to my broken heart. Have a drink to calm my nerves away. To keep me from falling apart. She complains that I’m afraid to change, but it’s not me (and she’s not waiting). So I pour another drink and raise my glass. ‘Here’s to life, Here’s to love, I’m growing up’. Why did I wait so long? I should have told you the day you left. But I wanted to feel you out. Now I wish you were near. I shouldn’t have let you go. Do you know how long I’d wait to see her smile? And it seems to me I have waited along time for that. She is ashamed because I won’t take the blame, but it’s not me. So I pour another drink and raise my glass. Can we just head back to the start? Without you here I’ll fall too far. Can I erase this lonely heart?

Alone in a Corridor. Come back, she left me here. It means you’re right, she won’t mind. Close the door turn out the lights because we’re alright, we’re safe tonight. Tell me how it feels to know when you’re with me, she’s back home. I’ll grab the car, you’re here, I’m leaving now. I’m pleading the fifth again. Tonight I’m on the run. I’m thinking of how it feels to fall in love when you’re with someone. I’m through with the tired lines of those who aren’t in love telling me how it feels to miss someone. Alone we’re standing by the window. I can feel inside. Tell me that he’s coming by. You ask we’re fine, because I don’t lie. The story of tonight was told, but I don’t care, he won’t know. Show me what it’s like to feel alive. Phone calls with her make me think. I’ll give you up, but I know I’ll still call you tomorrow.